The kids are adjusting so well. We were most concerned about Iris. Iris had been the 'baby' for almost 3 years. I wondered how she would do, but so far, she's been sweet and loving toward the baby. It's been such a relief and a joy to see all of the kids interacting so beautifully with their new baby sister.
After we had Iris, we weren't sure if she would be our last. We wanted to wait to make any decisions and see how life unfolded. I lived as though she would be. I was in such a sentimental place after I had her and that made everything so intense.
By the time Iris turned 2, Dan and I thought we wanted to have another baby, but we also thought we wanted to wait awhile to decide. I said a prayer, releasing it and asking that if we were meant to have another child, that Dan would have a strong feeling about it when the time was right.
The very next day, Dan said he felt there was another soul meant to be raised in our family and that if we got pregnant then, in the fall, he would have time off over the holidays to help me more during my first trimester. (As it turned out, I did have very bad morning sickness and his help meant the world to me.)
It was all rather spontaneous and yet so right. And so we named her Hazel, which comes from the Hebrew word Haza'el: God sees.
Hazel's middle name, Theodora, is a Greek word that means 'gift of God'.
It wasn't until we adopted Tia that I was able to slow down and really appreciate the beauty of the day-to-day with my kids. Don't get me wrong - I enjoyed Jude and Indigo so much. Yet I was more inclined to think ahead to the next thing rather than fully appreciating the moments right in front of me. While I was pregnant, I looked ahead to their births. When they were newborns, I looked ahead to their first smiles. When they were smiling, I looked ahead to hearing their laughter for the first time, and on it went.
But by the time Tia came into our family, I had finally learned not to rush it. The time by goes quickly enough already. I started to enjoy the moments for what they are - gifts. Beautiful, amazing gifts.
And so is she. Hazel Theodora, our precious gift.